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What are you doing here?

Hello, I am Nate, aka JimFear138, aka Dutch_Agent. The bio thing that Substack offered was too small to get a true idea of what I plan to do with this whole…thing, here, so I might as well give a more comprehensive idea of what I intend to do with this…whatever this is.

This is apparently a blog, which, fine, I had one before, and used it to much disgrace to myself. I hope to use this one to a much more edifying and good(?) purpose, which will be borne out in time. We’ll see how well I achieve that, but I will try.

What this was born from is that I am not only addicted to twitter, but whenever I take a sabbatical my mutuals keep bugging people about when I’m going to come back. And when I’m on twitter, in my cups, I will see things. And these things will bring forth an unrestrainable desire to go off for pages and pages about whatever the topic of the moment is.

And, on twitter, that’s not really helpful to anyone, as ain’t nobody readin’ all that.

Be real, if you see a 5+ tweet thread, are you reading it?

No, you’re not, and neither am I, quite frankly.

So this was devised as a way that I can get those diseased ramblings out of my head without filling up people’s timelines with said diseased ramblings and interrupting the fun they’re having on twitter getting into arguments with people.

We all have our own ways of relaxing, after all.

So this is meant to be a place I can just get all that stuff out of my head, and if someone gets anything out of it, then great. I’m glad for you. I predict nobody will read this regularly, as it will not be a regular publication.

I’m not putting out a novel, or short story anthology (although maybe I could, we’ll see). This is just meant to be a place those tweet threads that go on for, honestly, quite far too long, can have a place to exist where they can be out of my head and not bother anybody. If someone reads posts on this blog, and gets something out of it, then glory be to God, because that wasn’t me, it was Him.

I will also be prefacing any theological or religious content on this blog with that statement, because if God wants me to say something, He will inspire me, and I’ll say it to the best of my ability. Nothing true, good, or beautiful here delivered is by my own hand, but by God’s, because I am a reprobate sinner, and can produce nothing good, true, or beautiful but by God’s direction.

That said, I hope that this helps somebody, as the testimony of a sinner trying to live for God can, I’m told, aid in the conversion of people who have gone through similar difficulties. Or are going through similar difficulties. Whatever. It’s all God. He is the only mover. And I choose to believe that when I am moved to speak on such topics, He is moving me.

I pray to God that He will guide my hand as I purport to speak on things I should likely keep my silence on, and ask the Blessed Virgin and Blessed St. Michael the Archangel, as well as my Guardian Angel to thus guide my hand in the service of God.

I may be being presumptuous, but I am an OCIA Catechist, so part of my calling is bringing people to and explaining them the Faith. I only pray I am able to do so well.

Pray for me, frens, as we begin this descent into my absolutely deranged ramblings. And pray for yourselves. Pray that I lead nobody astray. Pray that my teaching, such as it is, is true. Pray that we all come closer to Christ through me actually posting the diseased thoughts of my over-scrupulous mind.

All that being said, welcome to the blog!

This should be fun, if not edifying and sanctifying. We’ll see. As stated, if anything is edifying or sanctifying, then glory be to God, because He did it, not me. Bear that in mind. I am nothing, God is everything. May He be glorified by this pointless blog, and I hope and pray you get something out of it.